Over the last few years I have taken time to reconsider my reason for being on the planet, my purpose. I now see it as a fundamentally arbitrary thing yet of fundamental importance when considering how I should engage the world in-order to get the most of my time as I exist in my current ordered form (the bag of particles that make up my body).
Since I discovered it, it has more or less been “to create beauty through helping others actualize potential.” Time, experience and learning have moved me past this. I changed but continued to live my life with that purpose in mind. It became a drag and the almost absolute antithesis of what I thought I was doing.
It changed today to read “to help living things actualize more of their potential” for about a hour. This still isn’t right. It isn’t Bobby Kennedy enough as it still implies only my direct intervention and nothing of creating a world around me that is conducive to things getting more organized – be it thoughts, actions, fitness, attitudes, development of a business, creating art in all forms, imagining the impossible, creating something out of nothing, etc… – so it needed to change.
It became “to help generate order through the creative actualization of potential in living and nonliving things.” That sits better because the “living and nonliving things” means the inclusion of almost anything including myself; e.g. my body, brain, and mind (all of the thought processes and normalized narrative thinking) can be a part of that which gets creatively actualized, a necessary change to stop a lot of the madness that I have been toying in. The nonliving things means that it isn’t just people I’m open to now, it’s EVERYTHING on the planet.
This excites me again because I can be living a purpose driven life all of the time, not just when I was engaging others. Wow!